[ he'll stop punching the wall and turn his head slightly towards akira. ]
They always act like dying isn't a big deal.
[ tersely. ]
That it's okay. [ he's not about to cry but boy is he starting to shake from being angry and sad. ] ...after all, they're going to die anyway. Why would anyone care? Why should anyone care?
Someone told me once—"live for what the future's got in store for you".
[ he repeats the quote straight from memory. words close to his heart. ]
They told me that as they were dying. Even after I— [ sadly akira is not at the currently rank for ken to spill those beans as he gives his head a shake. ] It's so easy for them to say things like that, and I've made sure to not let them down but—
[ he trails off and definitely is not crying!!! but. getting close. ]
[ sometimes when you justice you just gotta kill!!!!!
but the squeeze and level-headedness causes him to take it down a notch. ]
There are going to be others, Kurusu-san. [ for the moment, he'll be less murder-y. ] We missed our shot this time around and—now there might be two people. One person who definitely isn't themselves anymore and maybe someone else who might not be themselves later.
[ ... ]
We need to break these rules before it becomes a cycle.
[sharp exhale, and Akira's eyes slip shut, brow furrowed as his mind races]
. . . we messed up this week. [they weren't able to save Nia, or Asch, or find the person who had been possessed] But. . . we know a little more about how these "killings" work now, don't we?
[. . .]
What if there's a way. . . to find out who has been taken over by a monster before they kill on Thursday night?
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Trust is hard to come by in a place like this.
Especially for someone like Asch-san.
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[ a pause as he punches it again. ]
Why is it that people who know that they're going to die always act the same?
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[HE DOESN'T LIKE THE WAY THAT IS PHRASSSSSED]
. . . what do you mean? "Act the same?"
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They always act like dying isn't a big deal.
[ tersely. ]
That it's okay. [ he's not about to cry but boy is he starting to shake from being angry and sad. ] ...after all, they're going to die anyway. Why would anyone care? Why should anyone care?
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[quietly, his grip on Ken's shoulder tightening]
Why should they care when they aren't the ones who have to live with the pain of loss afterwards. . .?
[it's not a serious question, but rather. . . an explanation for why someone ready to die might act that way phrased in the form of a question]
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Someone told me once—"live for what the future's got in store for you".
[ he repeats the quote straight from memory. words close to his heart. ]
They told me that as they were dying. Even after I— [ sadly akira is not at the currently rank for ken to spill those beans as he gives his head a shake. ] It's so easy for them to say things like that, and I've made sure to not let them down but—
[ he trails off and definitely is not crying!!! but. getting close. ]
It's selfish of them.
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It is selfish of them.
[just gonna acknowledge that blunt and harsh truth for what it is]
[. . .]
And the worst part is, no matter how selfish it might be, people like Asch-san--
When they do something like this, they do it because they care so, so much about other people.
[because as selfish as Asch's move was, Akira can't deny that his sacrifice prevented them from killing another innocent who didn't want to die]
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I know. [ he'll close his eyes and shake his head again. his voice getting a little louder. ] I know that.
[ a moment to deflate. ]
I just don't understand why he had to tell people not to trust him. To feel like he needed to come off like that.
[ actually he does know why but it's stupid!! ]
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I hope we find out who was responsible for this and judge them for their actions.
[ when he says "judge them" he really means "kill them" but he's playing nice. ]
Whether it be Master Blue or someone else who is just twisted enough to force us to play this game.
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[oh]
[that's why you're "Justice", Amada-san]
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[he gives Ken's shoulder another squeeze]
We're going to find them, okay?
[AND PREFERABLY NOT. . . KILL THEM. . .]
There are a lot of questions about this place we still don't have answers to. One step at a time.
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but the squeeze and level-headedness causes him to take it down a notch. ]
There are going to be others, Kurusu-san. [ for the moment, he'll be less murder-y. ] We missed our shot this time around and—now there might be two people. One person who definitely isn't themselves anymore and maybe someone else who might not be themselves later.
[ ... ]
We need to break these rules before it becomes a cycle.
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[sharp exhale, and Akira's eyes slip shut, brow furrowed as his mind races]
. . . we messed up this week. [they weren't able to save Nia, or Asch, or find the person who had been possessed] But. . . we know a little more about how these "killings" work now, don't we?
[. . .]
What if there's a way. . . to find out who has been taken over by a monster before they kill on Thursday night?
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[ michiru died as well and isn't that just swell. but...if they could stop people from turning into monsters on Thursday—
that would solve their problems before they even start! maybe then they could even figure out why they were even here in the first place. ]
Do you think there's way we can do that?
[ from the way akira is putting it, does he actually know??? ]
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[sorry Ken Akira is speculating]
But I want to ask the sisters. They might have the answer, even if they can't give it yet.
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[ weeps. ]
They could maybe give us hints as to what we could expect. It seems like they do want to stop the murders from happening too.
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[that's something Akira believes wholeheartedly!]
I think there's a lot they wish they could say, but can't, for whatever reason. So even if I can't get a straight answer, I'm going to ask.
And I'll let you know what they say. Okay?
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[ he has control over them, obviously. ]
But okay. If I find out about anything, then I'll let you know, too.
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[he's asking this for a reason]
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[ clearly something holds him back. hmm. ]
Have your rung the bell?
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[he has wanted to, though]
Plum advised I don't ring it until I was sure I'd get an answer.
I'm still not sure.