...even if I had, she would not have seen it with enough time to be able to write back to me that same day, I think.
[which she is, frankly, surprised no one called her out on after the "we get letters on friday" reveal.]
We had an arrangement that if anything happened to either of us, we would send information back. We came up with the numbers in advance so she would have more space for the actual answers.
Oh, yes! ...it was a little awkward between us, at first, because of how some things happened on the island, but...
That had nothing to do with why I did not write to her. Since we had already made our arrangement, I sent my letters to other people to maximize what we could talk about.
Gotcha, gotcha. I wrote to her this week, and was like. Uh-oh. Did I read her all wrong? She seemed like somebody to me who wanted to do the right thing, even if she was kinda intense.
Yeah. I talked to Veronica a bit - I think that's part of how she picked.
[Which is a little cruel, but he doesn't think she intended it that way, or thought about it like that. He wishes she'd thought a little more, but Veronica is just a kid in a bad situation, too.
He saw a memory of Shinobu's that made him feel like maybe they had some things in common; he's glad not to be wrong.]
I think she didn't want to hurt anybody, and wanted folks on her side who wanted the same thing.
That makes sense. Playing darts... had to happen, but nobody wanted those darts to be sharper than they needed to be.
[Does she wish she hadn't been chosen? ...yes, a little. But if someone else would have been made to bear this - well, isn't it cowardly for her to wish that this wasn't her job?]
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[just
throwing that out there.]
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[But he's more worried about the implication.]
Was Shinobu not. . . was there a reason you didn't write her? [Was she not nice.]
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[which she is, frankly, surprised no one called her out on after the "we get letters on friday" reveal.]
We had an arrangement that if anything happened to either of us, we would send information back. We came up with the numbers in advance so she would have more space for the actual answers.
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[But just.]
But stuff was okay between you and Shinobu, right? She was your friend?
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That had nothing to do with why I did not write to her. Since we had already made our arrangement, I sent my letters to other people to maximize what we could talk about.
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[she manages a small smile]
...playing darts was... painful, for her. But I know she is working hard on the other side to help us all.
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[Which is a little cruel, but he doesn't think she intended it that way, or thought about it like that. He wishes she'd thought a little more, but Veronica is just a kid in a bad situation, too.
He saw a memory of Shinobu's that made him feel like maybe they had some things in common; he's glad not to be wrong.]
I think she didn't want to hurt anybody, and wanted folks on her side who wanted the same thing.
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That makes sense. Playing darts... had to happen, but nobody wanted those darts to be sharper than they needed to be.
[Does she wish she hadn't been chosen? ...yes, a little. But if someone else would have been made to bear this - well, isn't it cowardly for her to wish that this wasn't her job?]
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[Akira glances furtively at Chuuya and 45]
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