[again, his reply takes some time. mostly because he isn't sure he likes simplifying the issue to natural law versus personal law. in his experience. . . nothing is ever that simple. justice is a mult-faceted monster, and even if you do what you believe in-- fight for what you believe is right-- you still have to consider your actions from all angles]
[that's how he took responsibility as a phantom thief. that was how he kept himself from going too far while he and his team played with the hearts of the wicked]
I don't think the situation with Haruka-san and Nikki-san can be broken down to something that simple. There's just too much going on in all direcitons. But personally?
I believe Nikki-san deserved mercy.
[it's actually why he held his hand out to her once they figured out she was the culprit]
But considering the state she was in by the end of the trial, what counts as mercy? Keeping her alive but imprisoned as she slowly loses her mind, her sense of self? Or. . .
How you've answered my questions has been more than enough proof for me.
Yes.
Perhaps it's not the most logical answer, or the one that would make the most sense in the line of what we've talked about. But she's still a human, isn't she?
I don't know why she did what she did. I don't know if she was even herself anymore. But I still don't want her to die.
[and he means that. despite him questioning what "mercy" is. . . he means that with every inch of him]
Haruka-san's death was already bad enough.
[and while he had voted for Nikki knowing that he had no other choice. . . he wish that things had been different. that they had the option to save her, to cure her, to give her back her mind and stop her from killing again without having to execute her to accomplish this]
[. . . that doesn't surprise him. he doubts she was the only one, too. especially considering how Galo and Lio and Isaac were reacting. but there's no judgment in his next question]
I'm sorry to be talking to you like this. Slipping notes under a door when I know you're sitting right there. I just don't think it's wise for me to try and speak right now. I'll be okay. Give me some time to stabilize myself, okay? I just need to be alone for a little while.
Have a good evening and please, try to get some rest.
[with that. . . he waits a few minutes more to see if she replies. and if she doesn't, or only sends him another note saying good bye, he pushes himself to his feet and gently presses his hand against her door. he lingers for a few seconds, before pulling away and heading back to his room]
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[that's how he took responsibility as a phantom thief. that was how he kept himself from going too far while he and his team played with the hearts of the wicked]
I don't think the situation with Haruka-san and Nikki-san can be broken down to something that simple. There's just too much going on in all direcitons. But personally?
I believe Nikki-san deserved mercy.
[it's actually why he held his hand out to her once they figured out she was the culprit]
But considering the state she was in by the end of the trial, what counts as mercy? Keeping her alive but imprisoned as she slowly loses her mind, her sense of self? Or. . .
[and there, the writing trails off]
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You're really a very kind person, Akira.
I mean that.
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I don't think of myself as kind. People like you are kind.
[. . .]
What about you? Do you also think that Nikki-san deserved mercy?
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Yes.
Perhaps it's not the most logical answer, or the one that would make the most sense in the line of what we've talked about. But she's still a human, isn't she?
I don't know why she did what she did. I don't know if she was even herself anymore. But I still don't want her to die.
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[and he means that. despite him questioning what "mercy" is. . . he means that with every inch of him]
Haruka-san's death was already bad enough.
[and while he had voted for Nikki knowing that he had no other choice. . . he wish that things had been different. that they had the option to save her, to cure her, to give her back her mind and stop her from killing again without having to execute her to accomplish this]
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I don't think killing someone else will make anything better. Even if some sense of justice is served, it feels empty and useless.
Could I tell you something in confidence, Akira?
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But it wasn't "just."
And you can. I promise I won't tell anyone else.
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Who did you vote for?
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It wasn't because they were guilty, though. Or that they deserved to die.
It was just the only option I could pick.
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Some other people here might, though. So your secret is safe with me.
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I'm sorry to be talking to you like this. Slipping notes under a door when I know you're sitting right there. I just don't think it's wise for me to try and speak right now. I'll be okay. Give me some time to stabilize myself, okay? I just need to be alone for a little while.
This was nice, though. Really, really nice.
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I'll leave you alone, but come find me if you need anything. My door is always open.
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Well, maybe not right this second in the literal sense. But I hope you get the idea.
Please stay safe.
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Have a good evening and please, try to get some rest.
[with that. . . he waits a few minutes more to see if she replies. and if she doesn't, or only sends him another note saying good bye, he pushes himself to his feet and gently presses his hand against her door. he lingers for a few seconds, before pulling away and heading back to his room]