[and that promise, that tiny, verbal confirmation is enough to bring forth a wave of relief. Akira finds himself relaxing, his shoulders slumping and his expression evening out, his features now soft]
Okay.
[his hands feel idle when they're not holding hers, and he isn't really sure what else he should be doing with them. but instead of reaching out again, he slips his fingers into his pockets, even though they feel a bit awkward tucked away like this]
. . . okay.
I-- . . . I'm glad.
[he knows that it would be too selfish to ask her not to help others. he knows that if he were her, he'd likely make the decision to sacrifice himself for the sake of someone else's life, too. but so long as she looks after herself, takes care of herself, even if it's for his sake and not her own--]
[There's a mild look of disappointment as he withdraws his hands, but it passes, her own hand fideting with her hair, her necklace, suddenly aware of how quiet the room had become in the moment.]
..I'm sorry. I never meant to worry you so badly.
I... I still think I shouldn't be around Reito right now. I don't think he'll be very stable until he has some sort of proof that his family is okay. But... I promise I'll stay with someone tonight. Even if it's just Horikawa.
Could... could you take care of them for me? All those boys have had such a horrible time... so I...
[There's hesitation, before she nods, her pendant clutched in her hand.]
I... don't want to think I would do that to myself again without a very, very good reason. Otherwise... I think I know who I can ask to keep watch over me.
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Okay.
[his hands feel idle when they're not holding hers, and he isn't really sure what else he should be doing with them. but instead of reaching out again, he slips his fingers into his pockets, even though they feel a bit awkward tucked away like this]
. . . okay.
I-- . . . I'm glad.
[he knows that it would be too selfish to ask her not to help others. he knows that if he were her, he'd likely make the decision to sacrifice himself for the sake of someone else's life, too. but so long as she looks after herself, takes care of herself, even if it's for his sake and not her own--]
[then. . . then he'll try not to worry so much]
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..I'm sorry. I never meant to worry you so badly.
I... I still think I shouldn't be around Reito right now. I don't think he'll be very stable until he has some sort of proof that his family is okay. But... I promise I'll stay with someone tonight. Even if it's just Horikawa.
Could... could you take care of them for me? All those boys have had such a horrible time... so I...
I'm glad you're willing to be there.
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I will.
I'll watch over them and make sure no one does anything stupid.
["no one," he means Ayabe only]
Are you sure you'll be okay, though?
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I... don't want to think I would do that to myself again without a very, very good reason. Otherwise... I think I know who I can ask to keep watch over me.